"One of the happiest moments in life is when you find the courage to let go of what you cannot change." Herman Hesse
I had the most wonderful Easter Day. My son and his girlfriend spent the day here, and of course my grandkitty was here. We played Rock Band and board games, went for walks, ate good food and just enjoyed each other's company. The only problem is that because of overdoing my activity, I woke up on Monday and my body had declared war against me. I was in so much pain that I could barely move, and I was nauseous. My first reaction was to want to curl up in a ball and try to find some comfort. However, it wasn't until I realized that I needed to do more than just curl up in a ball that I was able to find some comfort.
First, I had to identify what a wonderful day I had had the day before. I had to acknowledge my success. It wasn't too long ago that I spent my entire day in my room and wasn't able to participate in Easter with my family. But this year I participated - progress! Way to go, me! Second, I had to acknowledge my mistake; I didn't pace myself and my body was reacting. This would not be a permanent new condition if I didn't make it one. I needed to treat myself with kindness, especially today. Take it easy, but not curl up in a ball, notice the world around me. Stretch my body to a full length, talk to those in my world, participate in very, very small ways. I needed to let go of the fact that I made mistakes and over did it with activities. I needed to let go of the fact that my body isn't what I wish it was. As I've said before, it isn't until we let go of wishing things were different than they are that we can be happy.